It's weird. I go through these cycles where every 6 months or so, I'll go like one week being really introspective and thoughtful and caring and that. But then I switch to a mode where I couldn't really care less about anything. It's sort of nice.
It's like being a
berserker in life. I think the root is that there were tons of times in life (mostly when I felt on the verge of self-destruction in college) where I thought, "If I get through this, I can get through anything" and "It will all work itself out". And it always did one way or another. (False?) confidence after that.
Here's some visual appendices to the stuff I may have said recently.
Restaurant Place 
Ancient Relic - a Compact Disc 
Where I'm FromIt's weird how you get indoctrinated to a place. When I go back to Southeast Texas now, it's like I can almost see a layer of filth on people. Never noticed before.
I think that's how I rationalize things sometimes like people being from Belarus. They look around, and they don't think
"This is Belarus. This sort of sucks." They are just more like
"This is home and life and everything." You don't notice that it sucks until you have a point of reference.
It's funny when I see people who live somewhere but carry themselves as if they are all hip and classy and better than where they're from, even though they're still living there. Like people who live in Southeast Texas but dress and act like they're from New York. A) New York is lame. B) You're not fooling anyone.
Me In My New Sunglasses Because I'm A Hypocrite Who Thinks I Should Wear Versace Sunglasses And Take A Camera Whore Picture Of It Because I'm Too Cool For Cheap Sunglasses And Everything In The World And I Use Satire And Irony Almost Constantly So It's Difficult To Ascertain What I Really Mean But I Think It's Pretty Funny Anyway 
Party With Family/Adults In A House 
Party With Mates In A Garage 
Coming Soon On Fox: When Kareoke Singers Sit DownWays I entertain myself: putting my name as "Jim LaFleur" on the work flag football signup sheet. And that kept me happy for a while.
Final Thought: Ali Faroukmanesh's shot versus Kansas the other day was one of the alltime great things I can remember in sports. It's a microcasm of how I think life should be lived. 30 seconds on the shotclock, conventional wisdom says to try to run it out. But whatever, you're open, SHOOT IT! Let the chips fall where they may. Pure brass.
Boom.
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