Monday, 03 November 2008

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  Today was without a doubt the most emotional of my life.  Really surreal.  The whole thing still seems like something I can wake up from. 
  
  This is the second person I've known that died that wasn't really old.  And the other time was a long, debilitating thing.  Gives you more time to realize what's going on. 
  
  I'm not sure what stage of grief I'm on. 
  
  

  I think I'm hopping around those. 
  
  I took pictures of her cube and stuff like that for memories.  The word "thread" was still written on her board from when I taught it to her the other day.  I would post some but that's probably against work rules.  There were reverberations everytime I walked by her office.  In a way, I never want that to wear off. 
  
  The only way I know to react is to be a better person.  Pick up the baton.  Try to carry on the perpetual energy. 
  
  In my hypotheticals I never thought I could be affected this much by anything in the world .  I just don't know. 
  
  I don't know.

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