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One good thing about no TV is that I get good exercise from running on the elliptical when I want to watch something. I watched Heroes at the gym tonight and it rocked my universe. It gives me naughty thoughts about a 17 year old girl, but let's leave that between me and god.
Heroes is pretty cool. I would say the writing is not as good as Lost, and there are less subplots, but it has only been 9 episodes. Granted, it's easy to make a good 9 episodes so we'll see where it goes from here.
Yesterday when I was coming home from the gym I was terrified for a little bit. The main source of said terror is from my seemingly constant contemplation of Chris Rhodes lately.
Chris was an elementary friend of Jeffrey and I, and now has a wife and kid. Not to mention an Associate's degree in General Studies.
The fact that I am light years, maybe even infinity away, from ever having a wife is the main qualm. People my age are getting married. Fuckin married for god sakes.
I'm lucky if a girl can hold my attention for upwards of 23 seconds much less presumably till death.
Will I one day mature and cross this threshold? I'm starting to doubt it. For all practical purposes, I'm basically the same mindset I was at 16, 12, and probably even to about 8. I was pretty precocious, and I've been sorta level since that time frame. In other words, if the 10 year old me was in here right now, we'd be practically the same - size differences aside.
Fact: I recently noticed there are a few stray glow-in-the-dark stars on my ceiling from someone who lived here before. I had glow in the dark stars on my ceiling back when we lived in the trailer. Eerie.
Another thing that bothers me about finding a wife is the whole finding one thing. Cliche says that there is someone out there for everybody, but what are the odds of me finding them? I do have a believe in destiny, but if that somehow fails, the odds of me meeting someone worthwhile are not good.
I don't want to settle on someone I've met when there are so many people out there. How many girls have I met? Let's say 500.
That's like .000025% of all the chicks out there. That sucks! That means that theres a 99.999975% chance that there is someone better out there than anyone I've met so far.
That's why I gotta sit back and rely on fate to bring that future wife to me.
Bring it on. 2.
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