If the casual observer knew how often I listened to Ricky Gervais, Steve Merchant, and Karl Pilkington, it would seem mental.  The casual doctor would probably chalk me up as addicted.  I don't know, my personality is weird.  Who knew I would listen to the 100's of hours of radio shows and podcasts over and over again.

The more I'm back in Houston and reminiscing on my Poland trip, the more I want to pull the trigger for an England transfer (which I've been talking about for years).  Isn't there some rule that if you think about wanting to do something long enough, you should just try to do it?  Because this has been brewing forever.

It's always worth it to try things, no matter what.  Even if you find out you don't like it, it's still alright because you did it. 

Visiting my dad this weekend which is good.  I hate realizing how fast time is passing.  Apparently I've had some gifts sitting here that I got for my first Communion that I never opened or looked at.  I told him, "About 18 years too late?"  There's a cool Polish eagle medallion thing in the bunch though so no problems.

I've at times looked at the alternate timeline where I never moved to America from Poland.  My brain would still be powerful, and probably similar looks (although I wouldn't have the benefit of the gym culture), and it might have been alright to have loads of different family.

One problem I find is that I like speaking English way too much.  There are loads of words and I know pretty much all of them.  It's just so expressive.  Way more expressive than Polish.  And all of the new cool words that come out (based on technology, the internet, etc.) are all made in America.  Then they just add some weird accents on it or a different ending and call it Polish, Spanish, German, whatever. 

Why can't everyone just adopt English and get it over with.  All the best stuff like books and movies and TV and videogames are already English.  Japanese and Chinese are used loads, but all those figures are tedious and they have to change stuff around into short forms to make it usable on computers. 

Last night was my first chance for a proper night's sleep in a while, but I still woke up at 7:30.  In Poland it was loads too hot and noisy (busy street) to sleep in.  Cursed.

My post-vacation blues at work seemed to wear off a bit as the week went on. 

I really do my damndest to live in the moment right now.  Like when I'm on vacation, I think, "Embrace this. Appreciate this.  You'll be confined to your cubicle before you know it."  And that kind of makes me like things more.  Except when I'm in my cubicle, I think "I'm confined to my cubicle." Then I feel even worse.

My favorite part of traveling is usually the airports.  I love airports.  For so many reasons.
An airport really is a lot like a mall.  But with a better energy.  Everyone's going somewhere, so it's sort of a big, unusual day for most people.  Just a good aura all around.  And you can buy snacks pretty easily.  Or get away with just sitting there waiting for your flight.

There aren't that many other situations in life where it's okay to just sit somewhere and you're not feeling anxious or waiting.  At the doctor's, you're more like "when will this clown call me in?", at work it's like, "why the hell is time going so slow?" but at the airport it's more like, "already through security and that, this is alright, listening to music, looking at people, waiting a bit more til boarding."  And if you need a boost for your fun, there's usually an airport bar somewhere.

Yesterday was my little brother's 7th birthday.  He's in Poland right now already, so my gift for him is the $1350 I had to throw down to go there too.  That should pay for his birthdays til atleast 10.